Anxiety Disorder.
This is for my mother. This is about my mother. This is about me. She'll probably never see this because she doesn't know this exists and won't for a while. A few years ago, I remember watching my mother completely fall apart. I had never seen her like that. It got so bad that she had to be rushed to the hospital. She was diagnosed with an anxiety disorder and a sleep disorder. It was the anxiety order that killed me at first. I could hardly look at her falling apart without feeling myself fall apart as I hid in my room. I couldn't watch this woman who pretended to be my mother; the one who'd tucked me in when I was little and helped my father tickle torture me. She only knew how to cry back then. That was what this video was going to be about. Then I was going through SacridiaDarque's channel, looking at her videos and learn from them. I first heard that song, Look Away. I was in the middle of editing this video and I was seconds away from crying. Only practice kept me from doing so. Then I remembered when my outlook changed. Every time I thought about doing something, I didn't. I just pretended that it wasn't there. I started to pray harder than I ever had that she would go back to the other person she was. Suddenly, one day, I had to take care of her by myself as my dad was at work. This is where her sleeping disorder came in. I had to repeatedly tell her to get ready; to take out her contacts, get on her pajamas, and to stay in bed. She was almost like a toddler. That …
I talk about my life after high school dealing with social anxiety disorder.
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Kortnee, over these past several years I have grown to know you. You are strong, and sweet, and such a good person. Right now, you and your mom have some hard times going. But with time they WILL pass. Your strength and optimism will get you through this. God will heal her. Just be strong and love her as you are. And you have so many people that will love you both, and keep you in their prayers. I'm just one of them. Love you, sis.
I love this :3 it's amazing Kort! and I feel like a mush ball now XD but seriously, you are one of the kindest and most outgoing people I know, and i'm positive your mother will always look back on the days you helped her with a smile, because you are a true blessing to those around you!
Every time I hear "Look Away," I have to cry. It got me through a really tough time in my life; and nowadays it reminds me of how I'm all better now. c:
LOL, I wasn't expecting my name to show up in the description, but if you say so. XD;;
On a serious note, I wish both you and your mother the best this world has to offer. You're an honest and loving person with the patience of a saint, and I'm sure that one of these days it will be rewarded. Keep your chin high, love. <3
highschool sucks
Awesome video(: I have social anxiety too.
hmm, the years after high school for me were crazy. i went from one job to another., but didnt go into a college atmosphere for like three years, in the year 2007. i look back and wish that i had gone to college/ as for the anxiety in my life, it has managed to stick with me to this day.
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I also feel limited in my job options but for more reasons than just anxiety. I'm about half the size of most guys my age (weight-wise; I'm tall but very thin). Too many of the jobs that are hiring around here require an amount of strength beyond my own. That wouldn't be a problem if I didn't have anxiety issues because then I could do something like customer service.
I, too, thought things would be better. I thought college was a way to start over but it turned out much the same: hell.
I barely remember my last day of high school but you're right- it was a great feeling. For me the relief lasted for weeks until my mom started putting a little pressure on me to either go to school or get a job. I did nothing for almost a year and then went to community college. I only went for 3 semesters and then quit because I couldn't handle it due to anxiety. Now it's been almost 9 years since high school and I'm still not doing much. Had a few jobs but never felt comfortable in any of them
I just sent you the video, "Removing old energy from the Heart" from ItsChancePisces channel. I hope you enjoy it.
I finished college years ago and now I'm like darn, I should have majored in something more in demand – not for money, just for job security. I guess you never know when you're going to get blindsided by life no matter how educated you are though.
I want to recommend a channel to you to help you. Go to the channel ItsChancePisces.
This vid is kinda scaring me, I graduate in 3 weeks. Umm, yeah, I don't wanna go into a rut! But then again, I'm going to straight to college so…Idk
I'm currently going through those thoughts that the social anxiety will go away after graduating, weird thing is that in the back of my mind I know it's a false hope.
Excellent video, thanks for making it!
I made the mistake of thinking it would be a quick fix lol. I started making progress, but then I stopped working on my SA for a few months and I've really dive-bombed since. It absolutely is a process, one that you have to work at all the time, even when you think you're "better".
Anyway great vid, keep them coming Amanda!
Thanks for talking about this. I also suffer from social anxiety and I find it helps me to do videos online, I practice my speaking and try to make friends